32 weeks...i cannot believe i've gotten this far. my baby boy Ash will be here in just a few weeks! i'm so terrified of losing him, this close to being able to hold him in my arms...the last two years have been so hard, losing Elliot, followed by two more miscarriages, the d&c, my grandpa, who i loved and respected so much, dying so suddenly...
but i still have Ash, squirming around in my belly, and Faithie and James, who are getting so excited to finally meet him...it's been hard on them too, so hard, the "mommy's having a baby" rollercoaster we've all been on...
just trying to stay positive at this point...*hugs* to all :)
About Me
- Loretta
- Michigan, United States
- i've been with my husband, john, since 1998, and we've been married since 2002. he's the sweetest, funniest, cuddliest, most adorable and incredibly annoying man on the planet, and i love him to pieces. i don't deserve him, and sometimes i want to beat him to death with a shovel. ah, love. i have 2 breathtakingly beautiful children, and i've had 3 miscarriages, including the loss of my littlest boy, Elliot, at 18 weeks gestation. i miss him like crazy. i'm pregnant again, due August 25th, 2009, with another little boy, and i'm praying it works out this time. i don't know what the fuck i'm doing 99% of the time, but i'm pretty good at faking it. i have wonderful friends who probably have no idea how much they mean to me. i love being outside. i love being alone, too, but that almost never happens. i'm incredibly impatient and i can be super obnoxious, especially when i'm around people i'm comfortable with. i'm kind of a creep. i like to hug people. i've learned more from my kids than i have from anyone else.
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